Friday, 8 April 2016

SIX YEARS ╰ 3 + 3 ╮

In these six years, since my father died I would say, I learnt :

- To don't rely on other people's intentions, whether they are your friends, loves, relatives, lovers, colleagues or companions. You can rely only on your good intentions, whenever those are truly good or not.

- That envy does exist and we are all possible prey of it, so you should better understand your feelings and the reasons behind your actions.

- That if you ask for help, it doesn't mean that someone will rescue you. You are the one and only who can truly help yourself and it's better if you do it since the beginning. Immediately you'll get the help you need.

- That you can not be mad at God as much as you can not be mad at yourself. It doesn't help. Nevertheless, rage needs its time to calm down.

In this last three years, since I stop dance I would say, I learnt :

- That it doesn't matter how hard you tried, how good you were, how deep you studied, how strong you gave all you have. It doesn't mean you'll achieve your goals or you will get recognitions. Nevertheless every effort will be absolutely priceless inside your heart, forever.

- That the drug don't work. And if you are a bigot, but you are still reading my blog, please consider the broadest meaning of the word drug. Drug is cocaine, amphetamines, heroin, of course, but, to me, drug is also your social networks, your devices, television, fast food, money, beauty and even religion, sometimes. Therefore I say : the drug don't work. If you have a problem, if you think you can't handle your life, if you lost your faith, you better find another solution, no matter how hard it will be, to stand up strong again.

- That I should try, at least try, to never be disparaging. It's one of the hardest thing ever, at least for me. Never disparaging doesn't mean always praising, but exactly never disparaging. Sometimes it requires a certain kind of distance from certain kind of people (and I'm not classifying people at all, I'm just underlining diversity), in order not to get hurt by them or by yourself.

These are mainly the things I learnt. And I tried my best to wrote them down in a positive way, because everything I just mentioned is easily transcribable through negative connotations as never trust anyone, life is unfair, people are selfish and envious etc etc. It took me a while to find out the difference between a negative sentence and a positive cause.

If you think I'm preaching, you are just misinterpreting my words, so, please, read again.

A.M.M. Den Haag IX APR. MMXVI