I think I was mad today, I think I was angry for several reasons.
It was snowing when I woke up, but I didn't pay that much attention to the weather out there, close inside my own world, my stupid problems, my little life.When I went ou,t after the breakfast and a fast shower, there was in front of me the must unbelievable snow storm ever.The air around me was so full of snow, transported by a strong wind in all the directions that was not even able to see the building on the other side of the street.My I.pod was playing "Azure" by Berlin Calling and I though, hey, I grown up skiing, I love the snow and this is the perfet music to get lost in the white. So I thrown myself inside that violent crystal supernatural event and I started to laugh and scream and sing out loud. Nobody around me, or probably covered by the snow.I felt such a freedom, such a power, a deep happiness, remembering all the time that I got lost in the snow with my father and my sister. It was so strong that for a moment I thought I was there with them, again thirteen, again with him, my beautiful funny father.I arrived in the theater, I tried to act my bad mood, and it was quite hard to keep on faking. I just wanted to smile to all the dancers around me cause I was feeling a huge love in my heart.Then in the break I went up in the balcony to smoke a cigarette and... surprise surprise... the sky was clear and blu, reflecting on the white snow and gifting me a crystal pure lake.
Then later on it started to snow again, all the city completely stuk, such a huge mess. Chiara sked to a technician with a van to bring us home. It was amazing to be driven home.All the people around playing with the snowball, helping eachother to get out of troubles, still smiling, cause, yes, I live in a small town, indeed. Still human.Kids runnging and laughing, mothers screaming, old people just watching from the windows all around with a lovely face.After lunch I reached my masseur running too,cause no bus at all, enjoing the "crunch crunch" feeling of the fresh snow under my shoes, remembering many beautifull moments of my life.I walked back home with David (the masseur) cause there was no chances for him to take a bus for the station. We spoke about many things, snow experiences, we thrown snoball to eachother and, again, just for a moment, my father was with me, with his smart, sly, crafty face. I was so happy.
Christamss for me means father. I accepted that I will not have the real christmas again without him, and it's ok, it's life.
Well, I just want to thank Santa Claus cause today he brought my gift one week in advance. I saw Vincenzo again today, so close to me, so happy to see me and this means a lot for me.Ti voglio bene papà e mi manchi tantissimo.
Marry Christams everybody!
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It was snowing when I woke up, but I didn't pay that much attention to the weather out there, close inside my own world, my stupid problems, my little life.When I went ou,t after the breakfast and a fast shower, there was in front of me the must unbelievable snow storm ever.The air around me was so full of snow, transported by a strong wind in all the directions that was not even able to see the building on the other side of the street.My I.pod was playing "Azure" by Berlin Calling and I though, hey, I grown up skiing, I love the snow and this is the perfet music to get lost in the white. So I thrown myself inside that violent crystal supernatural event and I started to laugh and scream and sing out loud. Nobody around me, or probably covered by the snow.I felt such a freedom, such a power, a deep happiness, remembering all the time that I got lost in the snow with my father and my sister. It was so strong that for a moment I thought I was there with them, again thirteen, again with him, my beautiful funny father.I arrived in the theater, I tried to act my bad mood, and it was quite hard to keep on faking. I just wanted to smile to all the dancers around me cause I was feeling a huge love in my heart.Then in the break I went up in the balcony to smoke a cigarette and... surprise surprise... the sky was clear and blu, reflecting on the white snow and gifting me a crystal pure lake.
I danced with this picture in my soul, trying my best to reproduce the beauty of the world, the harmony of the things around me, the unespected happiness that life can give you.
Christamss for me means father. I accepted that I will not have the real christmas again without him, and it's ok, it's life.
Well, I just want to thank Santa Claus cause today he brought my gift one week in advance. I saw Vincenzo again today, so close to me, so happy to see me and this means a lot for me.Ti voglio bene papà e mi manchi tantissimo.
Marry Christams everybody!
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