I think I got the point.
It doesn't mean that I have the solution or that is going to be better, but at least I got the point.
Imagine that you are a child and you dream about your life, you imagine that life, you escape into that life.
In that world you are not shy, you are not small, you are not thin, you are not treated as a moron, you are not ignored, you are not constantly scolded, you are not ignorant.
In that world you are social, handsome, appreciated, beloved, your opinion is taken in high consideration, you understand all is around you.
Then, because of an innumerable series of circumstances, your life starts to move towards that direction, towards the dream, and suddenly it goes beyond your imagination, leaving you amazed by so much fortune or benevolence.
You jump forward, fast forward, it's already the year 2007, a jump of 10 years and you are somewhere, dancing, loving, dreaming, sweating, like everyday. One day towards the end of 2007, one day as another one, a phone call as another one... it's always like that... this is the way everything begins, the beginning of the end.
And it's not about you, no. Your outrageous fortune keeps on going like before.
It's about the people that you love the most.
It's about deserving a destiny or not.
It's about the reasons why.
It's about doubting.
It's about the causes and the effects.
It's about rage, impotence, disappointments, frustrations, anticlimax.
Lastly a new thought born inside you, something you never thought before....
The unhealthy idea that you already had the best, even more than you have ever dare to dream...
And suddenly you cannot imagine your life anymore, you cannot wish anything, you cannot dream something better.
...when you discover that "forever" exists, but in such a different form, in such an unexpected way from the one one you were used to think about, that is almost painful, that you struggle to accept, that crashes down all your beautiful world you built in a life...
Forever exists, but it's not just a consolation.