Mrs Kathleen McNurney fired me from TLT company cause, after three years dancing there, She understood the fact that I don't have the level to fit in her amazing company.
I also thought the same during the all period. I was never such a dancer...
Maybe a good mover, an energetic performer, but not such a great dancer.
I write this to avoid having to explain the same story a thousand times, because, judging from the private messages that have come to me, rumors run fast furious.
I just would like to thank everybody for these unbelievable years together.
I'm not going to struggle around to find another company (maybe that best suits with the person/dancer I am). I went round and round just like a circle trying to find my place and I was never fitting anywhere. It ended up as a dancing lifetime. It ended up with me being a dancer.
But now story is done.
I had two proposals in two state companies in Shanghai and Beijing, but I think I will just take sometime for myself, digesting the fact that I'm closing a chapter.
Soon or later we will all have to stop to dance and in that moment we will become something else or someone else. That's life.
And no, is not about my back, that now is perfect (even though Dr Wegmann from Klinik St. Anna, Luzern, gave me the wrong therapy - ignoring completely what I was trying to explain him - threatening to send me to a wheelchair and calling Mrs McNurney without my permission to say her that I had nothing really serious and I was in the condition to dance fully). He didn't even tell me sorry, but maybe this is the price I have to pay for my arrogance. Pay arrogance with even more arrogance justified to a degree.
But this is the past, and I feel lucky that nothing really serious happened to me and that my body is stronger and faster than normal.
Lucky, like always in my easy life.
I would like also to thank all the choreographers which I danced with in these years.
Thank You for giving me the possibility to dance a lot in every single production (except Romeo and Julia in which I'm most of the time walking around the stage).
Thanks for all the solos, duets, trios, and group material You all gave me, I feel honored, and grateful.
And yes, it's true, since one year I don't have the motivation anymore to go on, I was just not brave enough to fire myself cause I'm too much in love with my colleagues.
I thank Kathleen once more, then. She took the decision for me, setting me free and, at the same time, giving me the most beautiful years of my life, till now.
Then will be the future which is like a first arabesque, as Cristina Bozzolini taught us, which tends to the infinity in front of us, and for this reason it is uncertain but evenly beautiful.
Let's enjoy this last season together, with all our shows and parties and tears and laughs and dramas and steps and adorability.
I'm sick to count till eight, but I will do my best to keep on counting till June.
LET'S ROCK IT TLT !
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P.S. There is just one thing that stays quite mysterious in my head : if I was not really enough, then why in these 3 years She never told me to improve instead of saying every time how special I was, instead of telling me about my progress, convincing me to sign the contract the second season when I wanted to quit, smiling after every single show. Of course I'm not gonna write here what I really think about. I had already enough problem because of the things that I think, I write and I do. Cheers Andrea Maria Mirabile.